Feeling Blue

I know I have not written anything new lately. I have been over consumed by the idea and thoughts of my pregnancy and everything else that is going on in this thing thing called life. I have been off my "happy pills" now for over a month. I am really feeling a difference. Not a good one. And I know that it doesn't help that I am pregnant and that I have all these extra hormones running through my body. I have been kinda of sulky for the past few days. I have been sadden and dissapointed in several things. I dont know what it is about me, but I seem to go through friends like some people go through socks. I dont know, maybe I set my expectations way to high, and then when I am let down in the simpelist of ways;for me it just devistates me beyond repair. I put so much love into them to only be let down. Then you get all awkward when you have to be around them. Its know one person's fault. Being the extravert that I am I have a real tendancy to speak before I think. I know that has gotten me into a lot of trouble and not so healthy situation. I am so desparate for God's strength right now! For discernment and direction.