Feeling Blue

I know I have not written anything new lately. I have been over consumed by the idea and thoughts of my pregnancy and everything else that is going on in this thing thing called life. I have been off my "happy pills" now for over a month. I am really feeling a difference. Not a good one. And I know that it doesn't help that I am pregnant and that I have all these extra hormones running through my body. I have been kinda of sulky for the past few days. I have been sadden and dissapointed in several things. I dont know what it is about me, but I seem to go through friends like some people go through socks. I dont know, maybe I set my expectations way to high, and then when I am let down in the simpelist of ways;for me it just devistates me beyond repair. I put so much love into them to only be let down. Then you get all awkward when you have to be around them. Its know one person's fault. Being the extravert that I am I have a real tendancy to speak before I think. I know that has gotten me into a lot of trouble and not so healthy situation. I am so desparate for God's strength right now! For discernment and direction.

Labor Day 2008

Labor Day 2008 was a good day. Justin and I took our time getting ready for the day. We drove out to the Black Sheep Brewery. It was about a 45 minute drive but we only went 20 miles. Thank you British road enginners. The brewery was neat. We had a great tour guide. The whole place smelt like. After we took the tour we had lunch there. I ordered the gammon. It was so good, but I was only able to eat like 2 bites. I was so sad. Lately, I have been getting full so soon. I feel so wasteful. Thankfully, Justin finished my lunch at the brewery.
After an afternoon at Black Sheep we headed to our first OB appointment. We didn't get any new information. The doctor just took our history. Since we are not to sure how far along I am, the doctor ordered some blood work. If the hormone levels are way up that means that I am further along. Meaning, I concieved in June. And because I am so impatient, I hope that is when I concieved. I am suppose to find out the results sometime tomorrow. I will post as soon as can with the results!